For instance, when I was a kid and lived for summer months in the village, in my aunt home. There was her huge Caucasian shepherd. He was red, fearless and aggressive to everyone from outside, as much as he was kind and rage-less for his master family. Knowing all that and been there for few weeks, steel I was afraid to go near him, even if his leash was short at the moment. Everyone knows this fear of mine and kindly joked about it around me. But I didn't want to check what he thinking of me by experimenting with my hands... I liked them and they were mine.
One night I was outside alone, it was pretty late already and there were nobody in the twilight of the yard. At least, I thought so. Dog was out of his kennel, glowing with his red fur in the darkness. Suddenly, like a gust into my head, appears this thought "He will kill me or love me, right now!" Without delay I come across the yard and hugged him. It was ok for dog and huge relief for me. He accepted me and licked my hand. To nail down my success I patted his head and hips, I even tried to sit on his back (which was of course not possible, he sit on the ground to drop me down, I wasn’t a first kid who played with him after all) And when I was ready to depart this loud sound appear... Whoosh! In dead fear I fade at dog's side thinking that probably it can be just something unreal, because in any other case shepherd will sound alarm immediately! No, it wasn't! It was one of the closest cousin's friends, who knew this dog from his puppies’ diapers. That’s why god was so quiet. Coming from bright electric light I didn't noticed him in his dark clothes ether. "I thought you afraid of this dog?" - Was his first phrase to me. "You and everyone else! But, I'm not! We are friends!" Said sassy me (look like I were sassy from childhood) going home.
What works for me to fight my fears? Embrace your fear and meet it in open field... (When you ready) then you'll see, that you stronger and you can conquer it!
Everything which does not kill us, make us stronger! (Friedrich Nietzsche)
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