The other day I was thinking about happiness, what is it and how do you feel it? When you a child you always curios about something, always wonder all sorts of things around you. You easily getting excited and feel delighted about so many things… So easy to want something with all your heart and to be so cloudlessly, endlessly happy when you have it! You wanted something very simple ( a new toy) and when your parent, or kind and wise Santa bring it to you, it make you feel no borders of your own, you melt in happiness and joy. You want to hug and warm all world, so happy you are! It’s very nice to feel it, and it may take a very long time for you, to start look normal and feel all what is really going on around you (well, here always some dreadful oatmeal can come to ruin all your joy…but when you kid? It’s always possible). So you can be happy a very long time, before you’ll get back to normal life. But still every glance to your precious toy can give you moments of admiration.
Probably, same amount of happiness will bring you pubertal…with other things…or, should I say, persons?
On the other hand, you grown up and you still want to be happy. You want to have this great moments… but now everything changed. You already have your own money, you can buy whatever you want yourself and it will be ok. It doesn’t make to so crazy happy, and you will not jump and shout of excitement, it’s just good, may be great or even awesome, but it does not make you happy. At work, yes you can be proud of yourself. You may achieve great things and it comfort you and make you valuable in other’s eyes…but still… why you don’t feel happy? And it is the moment when you start think about it and decide to do something, to become happy… You read something, think and analyzing yourself or just go to psychologist, who “do it for you”. You want to be happy, and you will! (think you for yourself)
If every day you will smile in the mirror for a few minute, even if it starts through your teeth, your mind will fix what it see in the mirror and relax…so in few minutes your smile will become natural.. more or less same thing will become from your tries to be happy. In some time thinking about it, discussing this meter with friends will make you happy one way or another. But it will be different happiness, not this light and organic feeling of flight, but conscious and recognizable, self – motivated happiness. The more mature you become, more you try to make yourself happy through the things, spending free time in different ways and with different people.
So two ways to feel happy, at least two… and different levels and qualities of this feeling you may experience. They not worse or better - they different.
